Beauty & Demise

by Ransom Pier

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04:38
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03:52
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04:49
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01:25
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released October 10, 2017

Hayley Harrington - Vocals/Guitar
William Carrigan - Bass/Vocals
Dan Crowley - Keys/Vocals
Max Maples - Drums
Steve Lipschutz - Percussion
Garrett Namian - Guitar on tracks 2*, 4*, and 7*
Ryan Nicholls - Guitar on tracks 3*, 4*, 6*, 7, and 9*
Andrew Kurman - Guitar on tracks 2, 3, 4, 6, 9, and 10*
* - Lead/Soloist

Greg Bunis - Baritone Sax on track 4
Robert Alcocer - Trumpet on track 4
J Walter Hawkes - Trombone on track 4
Coyote Anderson - Pedal Steel on track 5

Produced by Dan Crowley at Motel Room Studios
Long Island City, NY

All songs written by Hayley Harrington and arranged by Ransom Pier.

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Track Name: Supposed to Do
I know that this had to end
But every now and then
I wish that we could try again
I wish that we could try again

Remember when we laid in bed
And you held my hand
You said you wished this’d never end
You said you wished this’d never end

And I did what I was supposed to do 
What I was supposed to do
But I’m still without you
But I’m still without you

And I told the truth
Like you asked me to
But I’m still without you
But I’m still without you

D’you know when I look in your eyes
I can see the sky
Both beauty and my own demise
Both beauty and my own demise

With each message that you didn’t send
Felt my heart crumbling
But my love for you could never bend
No my love for you could never bend

And I did what I was supposed to do 
What I was supposed to do
But I’m still without you
Yeah I’m still without you

And I told the truth
Like you asked me to
But I’m still without you
But I’m still without you
Track Name: Bad Intent
Strange, isn’t it, how well we get along
We’re understood even when we’re wrong
Funny, isn’t it, how separate we must be
Hearts so close, but our bodies detached from reality

I want you now
No matter my bad intent

It happened quick, a revelation of a certain kind
This intensified beat inside your soul and mine
It’s overwhelming, you can feel it too
I’m not alone when I say I’m craving your truth

I want you now
No matter my bad intent
I need you now
But I know I can’t

And I know that you know
How good it could be
And I know that you know
How good it could be

I want you now
No matter my bad intent
I need you now
But I know I can’t
Track Name: Run So Hard
Yeah I run so hard, run so hard
Thought I’d chase the rain that plagued me from the start
Yeah I run so hard, run so hard
Down that dusty, dirty two-lane boulevard

And you thought you had me back in Kalamazoo
If I could take that train back yeah I know what I’d do

I’d run so hard, run so hard
In a million years I never thought it’d come this far
Run so hard, run so hard
I can see those eyes shining through the jailhouse bars

And you thought you had me back in Kalamazoo
If I could take that train back yeah I know what I’d do

Can you justify the taking of another life
Out here in the darkness it’s the only way you know to survive

Walked up to your room, walked up to your room
Saw the pale white face of the waning November moon
Said I’ll be back here soon, I’ll be back here soon
Before you see me coming you will hear that timeless tune
Track Name: He Wants To
It started one sided
On my side really
Infatuation’s like listening without fully hearing

So I picked what I wanted
Ignored all the rest
Why fuss over flaws when you can hide behind jest

But it’s all worn thin, I’m tired of it now
And I’m thinking of him less when he’s not a around

He wants to make believe
That I would never leave

The tables have turned
As one might say
But I gotta ask if he ever even liked me anyway

He can call me cold hearted
I’ve been there before
But being around him’s turned into a chore

He’s a good, good man and I’m a wretched old girl
He could do so much better in this beautiful world

He wants to make believe
That I would never leave

He, yeah he wants to, wants to make, make believe
He, yeah he wants to, wants to make, make believe

He wants to make believe
That I would never leave

He wants to make believe
That I would never leave
Track Name: Bittersweet Love
Slowly I emerge
With cloudy eyes
Like breaking the surface
Where the ocean meets the sky

I saw him clear
As the moon at night
But only an outline remains
In the morning light

It’s as though your face
Sinks deep within
Leaving my heart heavy
And aching for you, my friend

Oh, how beautiful that ache
Descending on me from above
Like a ripe fruit my heart
Drips with bittersweet love
Drips with bittersweet love

My head is filled
With the softest words
I want to sing you
The prettiest song you’ve ever heard

But I’m helpless my dear
There’s little to do
But use these simple words
I miss you

It’s as though your face
Sinks deep within
Leaving my heart heavy
And aching for you, my friend

Oh, how beautiful that ache
Descending on me from above
Like a ripe fruit my heart
Drips with bittersweet love
Drips with bittersweet love
Track Name: Holding On
It’s been a long, long time since I walked this way
And my mind it ain’t worked since yesterday
But I can’t get him out of my head

I can see him standing there all alone
With his dark hair, light eyes and man he’s grown
On me, he’s grown on me

And my heart slides down to the soles of my shoes
Each step pumps a beat of these terrible blues
Cuz he’s gone, he’s gone
For some goddamn reason, I just gotta keep holding on

He stood next to me as I watched them play
Some band that claimed they came from East LA
And he laughed as the lights came on

I remember his hands as they reached for me
They swallowed up my fingers to easily
And he led me through the crowd

And my heart slides down to the soles of my shoes
Each step pumps a beat of these terrible blues
Cuz he’s gone, he’s gone
For some goddamn reason, I just gotta keep holding on

After all we’ve said and after all we’ve done
I’m sitting here wishing that the rain don’t come
And wash it all away

Because the trees they bend and the sea it flows
But I’d wait a thousand years if you please don’t go
Away, don’t go away

Yea, my heart slides down to the soles of my shoes
Each step pumps a beat of these terrible blues
But he’s gone, he’s gone
For some goddamn reason, I just gotta keep holding on
Yea, for some goddamn reason, I just gotta keep holding on
Track Name: Shame
A small incision made on the surface of my consciousness
Allowed a leak of some toxic poison I can’t resist and
It settles deep inside my bones I can’t get rid of it and
It works its way out through my mouth I try to swallow it and

Shame is a feeling I’m not very unfamiliar with
It drapes itself across me more than I’d like to admit and
It’s hard to see when it throws shade on my accomplishments
When will I, oh when will I grow out of it

Down this slope I slip and struggle to control myself
I feel the weight of it, yeah I’m worrying about my health and
Nothing seems to matter all those feelings that I felt and
Like ice my sense of purpose it all seems to melt and

Shame is a feeling I’m not very unfamiliar with
It drapes itself across me more than I’d like to admit and
It’s hard to see when it throws shade on my accomplishments
When will I, oh when will I grow out of it

My foot has taken up permanent residence inside my mouth
All I know about myself is now called into doubt and
I can’t even feel comfortable inside my own house and
Apparently good judgment is something I can live without

Shame is a feeling I’m not very unfamiliar with
It drapes itself across me more than I’d like to admit and
It’s hard to see when it throws shade on my accomplishments
When will I, oh when will I grow out of it
Track Name: Heavy as Lead
He left with my mind last week,
Reached right in and took it to keep
And he turned on his heel before looking at me
And said “babe no it’s too late to weep”

Now this gap in my head it keeps growing
All this shelter can’t keep me from knowing
That those words were true that he told me
No, there’s nothing more unfolding

And it’s gone from my heart, like my mind from my head
And I could say a lot but I think it’s all said
You never saw me the way that I am and as I sit here I feel
Heavy as lead

I remember that summer I knew you
Everyday I got closer and we knew
That I’d fallen in love with a version of you
That had grown from a vision I’d had back at school

Yeah and Levon filled my ears that day
Crying out that the poor farmer had died in a way
So noble and true to return to the land
I could feel the warmth in the palm of my hand

And it’s gone from my heart, like my mind from my head
And I could say a lot but I think it’s all said
You never saw me the way that I am and as I sit here I feel
Heavy as lead

Loving you never really seemed to me
To be anything other than the opposite of apathy
And now as I watch you leaving me with my mind in tow
I just can’t let it be

And it’s gone from my heart, like my mind from my head
And I could say a lot but I think it’s all said
You never saw me the way that I am and as I sit here I feel
Heavy as lead
Track Name: Already Won
As a fiery red sun sets, we brush our fingers through the grass
What once was dewey now is dry, now the day has come and passed
“It’s peaceful here” you whisper, through the growing chirp of crickets
As I nod in acquiescence, the brittle grass makes me fidget

I gave you all I could allow
You’re draining all of my willpower
I’m gonna leave you now

I think back to older days and a strain burns through my heart
It seems to be a lifetime ago, but still has power to tear me apart
So silently I beg of you, to understand what’s been done
But I grip your hand as I realize, this war is already won

I gave you all I could allow
You’re draining all of my willpower
I’m gonna leave you now

I gave you all I could allow
You’re draining all of my willpower
I’m gonna leave you now
Track Name: It's Up to You
It’s up to you, I hate that phrase
it’s lazy and a crutch you’ve used these days

It’s up you to figure out the place
Where we’ll eat dinner and talk face to face

It’s up to you to pick what we hear
You haven’t cared about music in a year

It’s up to you where we walk to now
If you could I know you’d walk right out of town

It’s up to you to pick the movie we see
You sit so close but feel so far away from me

It’s up to you to pick our bed’s quilt
The blanket to cover this home that we’ve built

And it’s up to you to decide when we go
It’s been four long years and there’s not much to show

Now I know it’s up to me to make a new start
To pick myself up and brush off the pieces of my very own, my very broken heart

Now I know it’s up to me to make a new start
To brush myself off and pick up the pieces of my very own, my very broken heart

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